I waited to start this blog until I decided I had time for one more thing in my life, things were kind of calm, and I was sure that I would have plenty of time, an hour here and there to sit down and work on it. That wonderful period where you have everything going in the right direction before it all falls apart at your feet, and all your careful planning goes down the drain. In the last week I have had my daughter fail a mid year progress test at school, I have now figured out this is her silent rebellion for everything else going on in her life (she is still passing in all areas of the second grade, just bombed one standardized test). I also had to change my entire life plan for the next two years, we are no longer going to San Diego in August, but going to Washington state for a year, then down to Cali. Change and cancel movers talk to military housing offices in two states, and everything else that goes with getting ready to move. I have learned a lot about how to bend instead of break in the last few years, but even for us this is getting down right ridiculous.
The life my family chooses to live is not easy and defiantly not for everyone, but it is the life we have chosen to live. It is hard for both myself and my husband to be away from each other, and especially hard for him to be away from the kids. Right now he has only been gone for about three weeks and already commented on how much the baby has changed since he saw him last. When I think of how hard it is for us all to be separated, i just have to remember that he is doing what he does not just to serve his country, but for the love of his family. Because of him I don't have to put my baby in daycare and I have the time and energy to be active in my seven year old's life and activities.
What I guess I am trying to get across with all of this is that it may not look like the perfect picture of a family or be any ones ideal, but this life and these ever changing plans are our what we do, and I happen to like my life.